Thursday, 7 February 2013

Season of discontent.


I stand accused of creating a disturbance by jumping over the fence in Parliament and stripping a flag off a cabinet minister's limousine to symbolize the government's loss of moral authority to govern. - Dec 2004. (Picture courtesy of the Daily Nation)


2004 marked a season of discontent in Kenya. It did not take long for a country that had been voted the most optimistic nation on earth following the NARC victory in December 2002 to sink to the depths of despair as the lofty promises of the rainbow dream dissipated into a mere mirage and the political elite descended into the gutter of mudslinging and name calling in the wake of a dishonoured MoU. The only thing the new government seemed agreed upon was the urgent business of raising MPs salaries and processing their non-refundable duty free car allowances and tax-free mortgages. Corruption skyrocketed with the advent of Anglo leasing hot on the heels of the yet to be resolved Goldenberg scandal. As usual, it was the ordinary citizen who bore the brunt of the failure of governance, struggling to eke out a living amidst skyrocketing inflation.

Rather than merely join in the chorus of disapproval that was taking place in every bar, bedroom and boardroom, I decided to dramatize the outrage most people were feeling but did not know quite know how to express. But first, I took three weeks to do a whistle stop tour of all the eight provinces speaking to ordinary people about the performance of their government to ensure that I was not alone in the despondency I felt towards the new government and its broken promises. Visiting all the eight provincial capitals, I rode on buses and matatus, slept in lodgings and hang out in bars, listening to the ordinary people express their despair especially as they watched the news on television. Indeed I was not alone. 

Towards the end of November 2004 on returning to Nairobi from Garissa which was my last stop, I drafted a 10 point recall notice addressed to the 9th Parliament making a cogent case why the MPs had lost the moral authority to govern and should vacate the august house to enable the people to elect a truly representative and effective parliament. I proceeded to post the memorandum on the main entrance of the National Assembly. In doing so, I was following in the footsteps of Martin Luther who posted his famous Ninety-Five Theses on the door of the All Saints Church in Wittenberg, Germany, on October 31st 1517 to protest oppressive practices in the Catholic Church leading to the founding of protestantism. From Parliament, I visited the leading media houses in Nairobi and distributed the Recall Notice and also did some television interviews. I also distributed the Notice via email and it was shared widely that weekend among Kenyans of various persuasion.   

A few days later, on Tuesday 30 November 2004, intending to escalate the debate and dramatize the government's and parliament's failure to govern, I planned a visit to Parliament. I took the afternoon off from the international NGO where I was working as head of advocacy and went to Parliament Buildings. All the while, since posting the Recall Notice and doing media interviews, I knew that I was being trailed by my old friends from the national security agency. And so it did not surprise me that as I queued to get into the public gallery and just before I went in, a young police woman came running from the Parliament Police Station across the road from parliament and announced that the public gallery was closed to public. Never mind that a good number of people had already gone in and others were waiting in line. When I protested, she told me that those were her orders and  if I had any questions, I would have to go and see her boss at the police station. 

I had made a reconnaissance tour of the site the day before. I had noticed that Parliament had two fences; the outer perimeter fence which was about four metres high, and an inner fence which separated the public area from the private members parking and the chamber beyond. This fence was about four feet high and easy to jump over. There was a public booth at the entrance to the private area manned by one or two policemen who were busy processing constituents going in to see their MPs. 

My plan had nothing to do with going into the public gallery that Tuesday afternoon. I only did so as a decoy to confirm that indeed I was being watched. Rather, my plan was to scale the inner fence and get into the grounds of Parliament. Having been refused entry into the public gallery, I did not argue further. Rather, I walked as if to go to the police station but instead of turning right and crossing the road, I turned left and entered the public parking within parliament buildings. Ensuring that the policeman at the booth was too busy to pay any attention, I scaled the fence and strode casually unnoticed towards two sleek Mercedes Benz vehicles, one belonging to the Speaker and bearing the registration plate SNA 1, and the other a GK belonging to a Cabinet Minister. Each had the mandatory symbol of governmental authority, a pennant flag on the front left hand side of the car. I had no immediate quarrel with Speaker Francis ole Kaparo. It was the politicians who had pissed us all off in the preceding months. So I removed a pennant flag off the Cabinet Minister’s limousine. In so doing, I hoped to symbolically demonstrate the government’s loss of moral authority to govern. Contrary to press reports that appeared the following morning stating that I had slapped Assistant Minister George Khaniri in the process, my action was entirely nonviolent as Khaniri himself later confirmed. 

Shortly after I had taken custody of the ministerial flag, Assistant Minister George Khaniri strolled out of the Chamber accompanied by two gentlemen whom I did not recognize. "George," I spoke to him calmly not using the title 'honourable' as I did not think there was anything particularly honourable about this bunch of MPs. "The Kenyan people are completely fed up with your shenanigans and those of your fellow MPs. You made all these fake promises when you came to power and promptly forgot them as soon as you assumed office. Well, the people of Kenya want their government back. I am taking this flag to demonstrate the simple fact that the NARC government has lost its moral authority to govern. Indeed, it has only demonstrated to us through its many sins of omission and commission that NARC really stands for "Nothing Actually Really Changed!" Khaniri looked terrified but he need not have been, for I meant him no personal harm. 

I was promptly arrested by armed policemen and frogmarched to Parliament Police Station. I stayed there in the holding cell for the rest of the day before being transferred to Central Police Station where I was locked up for the night. The following morning, I was loaded into a police truck along with other miscreants and we were carted off to the High Court. I was produced in Court Number 1 before Chief Magistrate Aggrey Muchelule and charged with creating a disturbance in a manner likely to cause a breach of the peace.

“Yes, I am mad!”

Knowing that if I pleaded guilty or not guilty the story would merely fizzle away, when the charge was read out before a packed courtroom and in front of TV cameras, I opted not to plead, but rather to sing the national anthem to further dramatize the nature of and the reason for my nonviolent protest. Magistrate Muchelule patiently waited as I sang the entire national anthem in Kiswahili.  

"Mr. Njonjo Mue, you are the most patriotic Kenyan I have seen in a long time," he said with genuine admiration. "Not many people can still remember all the words of the national anthem." Still, he ordered that I be taken for a psychiatric examination. At that point, I addressed the court:

“Your honour, if in Kenya today it is considered normal for ministers to drive vehicles worth ten million shillings while a family of six in Kibera subsists on forty six shillings a day, then you don’t have to ask a psychiatrist, I will tell you myself, I am mad; if it is considered normal for MPs to be taken to Mombasa on fully paid holidays by BAT to be bribed to block tobacco control legislation while our people continue dying of tobacco related ailments, then I am mad; if it is normal for our leaders to traverse the land hurling insults at each other while our people are robbed, raped and murdered, then I am mad; and I take comfort in the fact that I am not the only one, we are millions of mad people who do not want to act normal while watching our country going to the dogs.

“As for the charge before you, your honour, I beseech you not only to find me guilty, but to hand down the harshest sentence permitted by the law.” I concluded.  

While many dismissed my actions during that November of discontent, a few read it for what it really was, a legitimate and well targeted act of protest against the country’s failing leadership. Writing later in an article aptly titled, Kenya – a nation in despair that appeared in a local daily and on the African Economic Analysis blog, one commentator, Michael Mundia Kamau, said:

There is something terribly wrong in this country. There is a devastating and looming crisis in our midst, and direction out of this needs to be established fast. Government and local authority functions have crumbled to the detriment of an entire nation. It is this sheer frustration that drove an exasperated Njonjo Mue to confronting two government ministers on the grounds of parliament on 30th November 2004. Njonjo Mue’s bold and courageous act of confrontation will one day rank alongside that of the Boston Tea Party of 1773, the storming of the Bastille in Paris on July 14th 1789, the beginning of the modern civil rights movement in the United States on December 1, 1955, when Rosa Parks refused to give up her bus seat to a white passenger in Montgomery, Alabama and the brave, bold and courageous manner in which civil rights activist James Chaney met his death at the hands of white captors in June 1964 by telling them to their faces, “I aint running”.

After paying tribute to other Kenyans throughout history who had gone against the grain and stood up for what they believed in, Mundia went on to say:

Njonjo Mue’s bold and courageous act of 30th November 2004 is nevertheless an enviable and inspiring wake-up call to both the entire Kenyan leadership and to the ineffective and heavily compromised Kenyan middle class in deep slumber, a heavily compromised 21st century Kenyan middle class that makes 18th century France’s Marie Antoinette and her callousness, appear saintly. The Kenyan middle class on which the country relies on for direction and intellect is decadent, and hopelessly preoccupied with sex, pleasure, alcohol, flashy cars and flashy cell phones. Fresh impetus and direction needs to be given to the Kenyan dream, struggle and movement, and Njonjo Mue played a shining role in this respect on the 30th November 2004. Sanity and direction urgently require to be restored in this country. (http://www.africaeconomicanalysis.org/articles/gen/kenya1204.html ).

Writing in her weekly column in the influential regional newspaper, The East African, on 13 December 2004, in an article boldly titled: Bravo, Mue, we all don’t believe in NARC, The Executive Director of the Kenya Human Rights Commission, Muthoni Wanyeki, commented:


I felt the same way on learning that it was actually Njonjo Mue who had scaled the walls of parliament and torn a flag off a government car. Mue was protesting what he felt was our new government’s complete betrayal of all of the ideals, all of the people’s struggles, that brought it into power. His audacity made me feel somewhat gleeful – for I find I have to try harder and harder every day to continue to believe in all of the reforms initiated or promised by the National Rainbow Coalition. And although, unlike Mue, I am dealing with my disillusionment from the comfort of my organised, safe work space and certainly not scaling parliamentary walls, it gives me great pleasure that someone else is. Because I do still believe in dialectics – thesis, antithesis, synthesis. And actions like Mue’s enable, make possible, the kind of actions I contemplate now. Actions like Mue’s highlight, in all the ways that organised advocacy, diplomacy and negotiations of the kind that many organisations do not, the basis on which we are all acting. So, I agree with the National Constitution Executive Council in their calls for all charges against Mue to be dropped on the basis that they constitute legitimate protest – an exercise of his freedom of expression. Dramatic gestures. They have their uses.


Back in Court No 1, Muchelule ordered that I be remanded in custody for a week during which time I was to be taken for psychiatric examination. It was not the first time I would be a guest of the State at the Industrial Area Remand Prison and it certainly wouldn't be the last.


TO BE CONTINUED.

Tuesday, 5 February 2013

Memories of High School - A Pastor's Remark and Religious Freedom in the Old School

HOW A PASTOR'S REMARK LED TO RETHINKING RELIGIOUS FREEDOM IN THE OLD SCHOOL

BY NJONJO MUE  ALLIANCE HIGH SCHOOL, CLASS OF 1986.

1985 marked a watershed year in Bush. One of those years when old traditions are questioned and a new generation sticks its neck out to quench its thirst for freedom. It was a Sunday morning and the whole school had gathered for chapel service as usual. Reverend Fred G. Welch, more popularly known as Contra, had just led us in prayer and invited the day's guest speaker to preach the word.

Pastor Ambrose Nyangao of Parklands Baptist Church was the preacher for the day. He was a regular visitor and we simply loved him for his passion, sense of humour and the way he easily connected with us through his preaching that was interspersed with sheng, making the Bible come alive in a way few other preachers did. I still remembered the last time he visited. He had brought the house down with the Ambrose Standard Version of the Jesus and Zaccheus story in Luke 19:1-10 - "Jesus akamuita Zaccheus, 'ebu teremka, leo nita-dish kwa hao yako.' Walipoenda home, bibi ya Zaccheus akaanza kuzusha, 'mbona hukuniambia Jesus ana-come?' Zaccheus akaanza kujitetea, 'si fault yangu, ni Jesus aliji-invite..." 

And so no one expected any drama during this Sunday service except the usual sprinkling of humour. Neither do I think that Pastor Ambrose deliberately set out to cause an age old Alliance tradition to be overturned. He was just being a preacher delivering his message passionately as usual. His sermon was about the Lordship of Jesus Christ. I forget all the details now. I only remember the one part of the message that caused a mini tremor in the old school 

"The Bible says that every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord," he said quoting Philippians 2:9-11. Nothing controversial there. He was, after all, just quoting Scripture. But then he went on to expound what he understood this verse to mean. "Jesus is Lord!" he thundered. "Everybody else is subject to Jesus Christ. Buddha is subject to Jesus Christ. Mohammed is subject to Jesus Christ..."

At this point, Munir Sheikh, the usually uncontroversial and sharply dressed Form 5, stood up and started for the door. He was joined by several Muslim students rising from various parts of the Chapel where their houses sat. From the balcony where Sellwood House was sitting that term, I saw Majid Twahir, the Medical Prefect, rise and join the walk out followed by all the Muslims seated at the balcony. What started as a trickle soon became a flood as virtually all Muslim students, from First Formers to Senior Prefects, left Chapel in protest at the pastor's last statement. 

This may seem like a minor event to those who went to the school in the 1990's and later, but for us and previous generations, attending chapel was compulsory for all students regardless on one's faith. Every student had to sign a commitment form upon admission that said that Alliance was founded on Christian traditions and all students were expected to attend chapel services five times a week including Sunday service. To my knowledge, this rule had never been questioned. For students to walk out in the middle of a service with a guest speaker preaching was unfathomable. The tradition of Alliance High School was that if you encountered an injustice you endured it and then complained later. Alliance was a community founded on the rule of law and that had enduring faith in due process. Except seemingly this once. It would appear that our Muslim colleagues felt the injustice this time required an immediate and dramatic response. 

Pastor Ambrose went on with his sermon though most of us by now had our attention elsewhere. We were deep in thought about, with some even whispering to each other as to, how this crisis would be resolved. Would all the Muslim students be punished? But how could they be? They had walked out in an orderly and respectful fashion when they felt their religion attacked. Would they be let off without consequence? But then what would be the implications of this for other faiths, for example the SDAs who were required to attend classes on Saturday morning? What about others who might come up and say their religions forbade them to run cross country, or to do farm work, or to wash toilets during morning work? What sort of compromise could be reached to acknowledge that an injustice had been done to the Muslim students while at the same time upholding school traditions? We could not wait for the service to end so that we could discuss the implications of what had just happened in Chapel that Sunday morning. When service ended, we spent the rest of the day huddled in small groups in kamkunjis discussing the momentous happenings in Chapel that morning. 

On Monday morning, the Muslim students who had walked out of Chapel were summoned to a meeting with the Headmaster. There were no recriminations. In the old Alliance way where the old starts to give way to the new, a compromise was reached. Muslims would no longer be required to attend Sunday Chapel services, but would be allowed to go to the Mosque instead. But they were still required to attend Chapel on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays. I am not sure how long this arrangement was maintained or whether it still obtains today.

What I do know is that the courage of Munir Sheikh and his colleagues paved way for a new era where religious freedoms and cultural diversity could start to be seen as part of the Alliance mosaic and where the message could be sent that even though the best school in Kenya had been founded by Christian missionaries, its vision was big enough to accommodate all who were committed to being strong to serve, no matter the faith tradition they happened to come from.

Memories of High School - Let's drink and make merry, for tomorrow... we get saved.

LET'S DRINK AND MAKE MERRY, FOR TOMORROW... WE GET SAVED. 

It was show time again. The Nairobi International Show, that is. The year was 1984 and I was in Form 4. As usual, there were several bus trips ferrying students from Bush to Jamhuri Park and everyone had to be on their assigned trip on either of the two buses - the new school but whose registration number I forget, and the old faithful loaf-shaped KMG. We had connived to be assigned to the last trip out of school, because that also meant that we would be on the last trip to leave the Show. 

For us, the show was not about ogling at exhibitions of new products or friesian cows as they competed for first prize, after all, we had dropped Agric as a subject at the end of Second Form. Instead we spent part of the morning watching acrobatics at the tattoo ground while waiting for the real show to start - the disco at Namis Club which was graced by Maroon Commandos live band. 

I was particularly popular with my buddies around show time because I had an uncle who was an officer in the army. I would take my buddies to the officers' mess at the show ground and ask to see him, hoping that he was actually not in. If he happened to be in, we would go in and say hi and he would buy us lunch and we would be on best behaviour as we ate great food and drank coke and fanta. But if he happened not to be in, then we would lie that he had asked us to wait inside for him, and as soon as we were let in, we would cover our school uniform in jackets or sweaters that we had carried, sit at a corner and order beer at greatly subsidized prices. Thus the afternoon was spent making merry courtesy of the Kenyan armed forces. 

On this particular day, my uncle thankfully happened not to be around and we spent most of the afternoon drinking duty free alcohol. When we felt sufficiently drunk, we went off to dance the evening away. But we had to be careful not to miss the last bus to school which we calculated would leave from the pick up point at a Petrol Station at Dagoretti Corner at about 9 p.m. 

All too soon, it was time to go and we staggered merrily to Dagoretti. Thankfully, we found the bus just about to leave. We hopped on singing our hearts away but no sooner had I sat down than I noticed Isaac Lenaola sitting soberly on the same bus and I knew we were in trouble. You see Isaac was the Junior Library Prefect and straight as a rail. He was also a Christian. We were not as close as we later became and I fully expected that he would certainly take this matter forward. I sensed a suspension coming my way.

When we got to school, my friend and drinking mate, Adongo Adeya, insisted on holding my hand to escort me to my dorm despite his being equally drunk. We both caused quite a scene as we staggered from the parade ground past the grave yard and the Grieve Library towards Sellwood House. Little did we know that Mahinda Macharia, the Chapel Prefect who was the Senior PoD that week had caught sight of us. 

No sooner had I slipped into bed in Dorm 21A than Mahinda walked in. "Njonjo, have you been drinking?" he asked with fatherly concern. "I had a few sodas with some friends from Lenana," I lied. "And it seems like they put something in my soda because, although I don't know how it feels like to be drunk, I am feeling a bit funny."

Mahinda proceeded to tell me how bad drinking was. He was more concerned about the state of my soul than the fact that I had broken a cardinal school rule. "You are a good boy with a great future ahead of you," he said. "Satan knows that and he is not happy. You see, the thief comes to steal, to kill and to destroy, but Jesus came that you may have life abundantly. Njonjo, alcohol will not give you abundant life. Only Jesus can. And the only way you can experience this life is if you give your life to Christ. Would you like to receive Christ as your Lord and Saviour?" Mahinda asked. 

I was ready to do anything. Giving my life to the Lord was a small price to pay to avoid suspension. So, with all the holiness I could muster, I told Mahinda that I had actually been contemplating salvation for quite some time now, and God must have sent him to pray for me. And pray he did, earnestly but softly so as not to disturb the other junior boys that were already asleep. I myself was drifting in and out of sleep throughout the prayer, not paying much attention, only being relieved that I was off the hook. Except of course, if Lenaola decided to take the matter forward. 

In the event, Lenaola called me aside the following day after lunch and told me that although it was his duty to report our drunken behaviour to the authorities, he had decided to let it go on condition that we promised that it would be the last time it would happen. I promised profusely and the matter rested there. 

The Bible says that the word of God does not return to him void, neither do prayers said in sincerity of heart. I got saved in jest that night to avoid suspension, but God did not relent in pursuing me. I believe that Mahinda's faithfulness in praying for this wayward junior boy and Lenaola's magnanimous forgiveness sowed a seed that would slowly but surely germinate inside my heart. Seven years later, in January 1991, that seed was ripe for harvest and I gave in to the charm of the Holy Spirit as I invited Jesus Christ into my heart to be Lord and Saviour of my life. I have never looked back...

 My testimony as to how the Lord finally caught up with me can be found here: 

http://njonjomue.blogspot.com/2011/11/just-as-i-am.html

Memories of High School - the charity film that never was...

THE CHARITY FILM THAT NEVER WAS...

The school hall was packed to capacity. It was a Saturday evening and there was a charity film about to be screened. Acrossians had already arrived and I was busy making calculations as to which chick I was going to hook. Being only a Form 2, and with my sinking skills far from perfect, there was a distinct possibility of floating... and that would be an unspeakable dent to my reputation. But the signs were good. I had already spotted three distinct prospects. The evening was pregnant with possibility. Still, one could never be too sure and I had to position myself strategically within striking distance of my first choice, a fellow Form 2 girl from Macpherson House whom I had met during swimming practice a few weeks before. Things were looking good...

Just at that point, a stream of red skirts and sweaters flowed into the hall. Alas, Loreto Limuru, better known as Reds, had responded to the invitation, which was a rare occurrence for charity films which were usually a Bush-Across affair. If the excitement before had been palpable, it now became downright tangible. Quick re-calculations had to be made among those of us who had loyalties in both schools. There was great potential for trouble... Preoccupied as I was with planning how to avert serious conflict, I failed to notice that the girls from Reds were more than the hall could accommodate. But not for long, for soon the entertainment prefect was on stage making an announcement.

"The hall is filled up and we have to make room for our visitors," he said with a disturbing finality. "All Form 2s, please leave the hall. You will watch the movie tomorrow afternoon." 

Was this guy listening to himself?? How dare he pick on Form 2s? Why us and no one else?? Why could Form 4s and Form 6s not be asked to leave? After all they were the ones who needed to study for exams. But of course this would never happen. All students were equal but some were more equal than others. His choice was arbitrary, but it was made. Form 2s were to vacate the hall before the movie could start. But we would not give up so easily. We stayed put pretending he was speaking to someone else and there was a mini stand off until the burly figure of Mr. Tendeka (better known as Breshnev or Brezhi ), the Deputy Headmaster, made its way to the stage. 

"Form 2s," he said in his unmistakable Kisii accent. "You will leave the hall immediately." We could argue with the entertainment prefect, but now the Deputy HM had spoken, and his word was law. My heart sunk. Didn't this man not know what damage he was doing to my young heart? Could he not understand that this was the night I might meet my future wife?? This was preposterous! This was turning out to be a disaster of epic proportions, at least to an infatuated 15 year-old boy full of hormones running amok. 

Having no option, we filed out of the hall, feeling utterly miserable. Many of us had borrowed pleated trousers and the mandatory brut-faberge cologne. I was even wearing a new pair of boots borrowed from my dorm mate. And now I was headed for Prep?? The rebel in me was sufficiently provoked and as we reluctantly made our way out of the hall under the watchful eye of the Deputy Headmaster, Mr. Tendeka, I started to sing softly "Kazi ya Tendeka, kazi ya tendeka..." Suddenly, all the disenfranchised Form 2s joined loudly and defiantly in our new impromptu freedom song, "Kazi ya huyu shetani yaTendeka..." 

The rest of the hall burst into laughter. I was not sure whether they were laughing with us because they found our protest song funny or whether they were laughing at us because we were being expelled from the hall and were going to miss out of all the fun during interval and after the movie. But Tendeka himself was not amused. He huffed and puffed on stage but that did not deter us. We sang all the way to the classrooms. We knew that we would be punished for our impertinence but that was another problem for another day. What mattered to us was that we did not meekly walk out of the hall when asked to leave. 

Thursday, 17 January 2013

Thank you Jesus for January 17, 1991.

Today is Thursday, 17 January 2013. It is exactly 22 years since I gave my life to Christ during an evangelistic crusade at the Nairobi Pentecostal Church Valley Road. It has been a 22 year adventure of experiencing the faithfulness of God and realizing His promise never to leave me nor forsake me. I have seen His hand through good times and bad; from the hallowed cloisters of academia to the forsaken dungeons of Kenyan prison cells; from hospital beds to cocktail parties with the great and the good. The Lord has hidden me beneath the shadow of his wings when danger assailed me and He has lifted me when I have fallen. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. 

Thursday, 10 January 2013

People, Let My Pharaoh Go!


Ever wondered why it took 10 plagues to persuade Pharaoh to let God's people go and ironically it was God who hardened Pharaoh's heart. What sort of game was God playing at?

Well, the hardness of Pharaoh's heart was not for Pharaoh's benefit, for it only postponed the inevitable. It was for the benefit of the Hebrew slaves. For 400 years, they had been hypnotized by the power of Egypt into idolizing Pharaoh and all the gods of Egypt. They had long forgotten the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob; their God, the only true God, who alone was to be served and worshiped. God had to put on a 10 act play to display once and for all who between Pharaoh and Himself was the true God. It was an epic drama and the Hebrews were invited to take front row seats and enjoy the show in order to know beyond doubt not only who they were, but whose they were.

The Kenyan people have endured slavery for a long time. We have been made to serve and worship first the white masters of colonial rule and later their black nyaparas who we have regularly 'elected' to take care of the white masters' economic interests while feeding off the fat of our land while the rest of us starve and strive and enjoy our 'democracy'.

Our God has issued the directive "Go to Pharaoh and tell him 'Let my people go that they may worship me'". The only problem is that there seem to be few takers of this divine command.

We have fooled ourselves into believing that an election will dismantle the system of oppression that has been perfected over centuries without the necessary preliminary display of power to show who the real God is. Whether it is our Pharaoh comprising Western multinationals, Anglo-Saxon hegemonic geopolitical interests, China, and their black nyaparas - the Kenyattas, the Mois, the Kibakis, the Odingas, and a bunch of MPs and Senators and Governors and MCAs, or it is the only true God who alone is to be served and worshiped and enjoyed forever.

And so we continue making bricks without straw - manufacturing clothes in export processing zones for the white man's back which we re-import years later as mitumba; growing pineapples, tea and coffee for his palate, while we can barely feed ourselves; setting aside the most beautiful landscapes, flora and fauna for his enjoyment and not our own; giving him preferential treatment no matter what his status or achievement in life while abusing our own brethren.

We have been worshiping at the altars of Egypt for too long to realize that Pharaoh is not God and that our lives and livelihoods do not after all depend on him. Our God is perfectly able to take care of His own. If only we could trust Him; if only we could pause and listen... we would hear Him asking 'Who will go for us, whom shall we send to break the spell that Pharaoh's magicians have cast over my people?"

Amkeni ndugu zetu.

Saturday, 5 January 2013

We are The Beloved - A New Year Letter from Johannesburg

Johannesburg
 
8th January 1999
 
 
My dear Ann,
 
 
Here's a thought:
 
'We are childen, perhaps, at the very moment when we know that it is as children that God loves us - not because we deserved His love and not in spite of our underserving; not because we try and not because we recognize the futility of our trying; but simply because He has chosen to love us. We are children because He is our Father and all our efforts, fruitful and fruitless, to do good, to speak truth, to understand, are the efforts of children who, for all their precocity, are children still in that before we loved Him, He loved us, as children, through Jesus Christ our Lord.'
 
                                                                  Frederick Buechner, 'The Magnificent Defeat'.
 
We often forget or choose to misunderstand  the true nature of God's love for us; His grace, given to us not because we've earned it, or deserve it, but simply because He created us to love us.
 
This last week, I've been trying to come to terms with my own belovedness before God. He is showing me how valuable I am to Him; and reminding me that I do not have to perform to impress Him. And if you are like me, and I know in many ways you are, you too need to be reminded of the special position you occupy in God's heart. I borrow the words of Henri Nowen and tell you today, "All I want to say to you is, 'You are the Beloved,' and all I hope is that you can hear these words as spoken to you with all the tenderness and force that love can hold. My only desire is to make these words reverberate in every corner of your being - 'You are the Beloved.'"
 
This is a reality that we Christians should take hold of and refuse to let go; for as Brennan Manning writes, "Anchored in this reality, our true self needs neither a muted trumpet to herald our arrival nor a gaudy soapbox to rivet attention from others. We give glory go God simply by being ourselves."
 
I pray that this may be a year like no other when it comes to glorifying God. For me, I am tired of lukewarm Christianity; I have returned to my First Love. Remember how I told you that I had abandoned my search for a spouse. Well, the real reason I did so was that God asked me a simple question, "How exactly do you propose to succeed with a second love when your relationship with your First Love (Jesus) is on the rocks?" And so I decided that having a relationship was not a priority. I am casting my eyes and all my attention upon Jesus; I am giving Him all the gifts and talents He gave to me and making them available to Him to use them as He pleases. I am upping the stakes and sticking to biblical standards in my life. You know I was reading the other day how Christians make the mistake of comparing themselves with the world and if their morals compare  better, they feel OK. Well, the trouble is that the world's moral standards are perpetually on a downward spiral; and so what was the world's standard yesterday becomes the Christian standard today. And the Church has become even more powerless because we've let ourselves be dragged down by a dying world as we have pegged our morality to its scale. We should stick to and strive for biblical standards because they never change.
 
I hope your fasting is going well. Mine's great. It has enabled me to focus on God and pray like never before. I thank you for inviting me to Victory (Christian Church in London) those two times, especially last week - it has really opened me to a fresh and practical understanding of fasting and prayer.
 
As for the Maya Angelou book (that I forgot at your house), I wouldn't worry about it. If you do find the time to read it, please do; but if not, don't feel obliged to read it just because you happen to have it. I shall pick up where I left off when I next see you.
 
Well, that's me being remarkably preachy again. I hope you don't mind. Sharing my faith, and some of these lessons, helps to make them real to me. And I do hope that you find som of the insights useful.
 
I conclude by urging you, my sister, to continue to be prayerful; for a prayerful heart is a heart in tune with God. And always remember "it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose." (Phil. 2:13)
 
An anonymous poet writes:
 
They tell me, Lord, that when I seem
To be in speech with you,
Since but one voice is heard, it's all a dream
One talker aping two.
 
Sometimes it is, yet not as they
Conceive. Rather, I
Seek in myself the things I hope to say,
But lo!, my wells are dry.
 
Then, seeing me empty, you forsake
The listener's role and through
My dumb lips breathe and into utterance wake
The thoughts I never knew.
 
And thus you neither need reply
Nor can; thus, while we seem
Two talkers, thou art One forever, and I
No dreamer, but thy dream.
 
May the Lord continue to watch over you, dear Ann, as your feet continue to walk in obedience to His will.
 
 
Love in Christ,
Njonjo